A habit 
unaware or by choice..
My habit 
chosen 
hear my voice..
slow burning within 
churning heart mind and soul into one..
addictive 
my stimulant 
keeping me high.. 
my depressant 
for all the unknown whys.. 
love induced high 
absorbing into my bloodstream 
heart rate rising 
chaos on the horizon.. 
you are all good feelings
all at once
adrenaline spiked..
my nightshade 
cutting through me
like a sharp edged blade..