the sad is shifting
the good is lifting
I see with the heart of my eyes
It’s no mystery you somehow missed me..
on an unmarked day
At an unknown hour
my heart came alive..
with all the commotion going on inside..
Time has put space between the sad and the good – as it should..
I miss you once upon another time..
you danced my heart full of sunshine and kisses sweet
I’m moving beyond the sad
glad I lived it well
my heart is where it was to be
It is beautiful and free..
Blessed it be the mystery of love..
not to be solved -broken down or tamed..
Love has no name – it beats to its’ own game..
I lived for this endless wonder
Thrived in its’ unspeakable beauty
grew by the sounds of love
until I never knew this kind of blue that it possessed..
my world went silent
sharpest quiet cut me down until
my ears could no longer hear
My heart could no longer bear..
Yet I’ll always care for this lovely game of love that causes such despair..
Cursed it be the mystery of love..
Jealous of the night that wraps you in its’ intoxicating moments..
The moon that rocks you tender as you slumber..
envious of the sun that shakes you gently with its’ morning hello..
Oh that you could see my light and how it revolves around you
That my heart was still the beacon that lit you up..
You closed your eyes and it went black..
So I’ll grieve and
My heart will bleed
Yet I’m removing the shackles that bind me
I’ve done my time..
I won’t sulk anymore
Nor dwell on the memories
I’ve kissed them goodbye
No – I will not steep in sadness or misery like a bitter tea..
I choose to keep moving and let my heart be as free as the sea..
a part of your soul will always keep me whole..
life is full of mystique
the unexpected causing us to always seek..
some uncertainties shrouded in mysteries to great to grasp
leaving it’s unforeseen moments creating our past..
I may look the same
sound the same
Feel the same
But I have no name
My insides screaming for all we can’t see..
my heartbeat – once your haven –
come to me
lay your head to rest where it longs to be
as the sounds of the beat bring you home to the retreat of Me..
We are circling the sun
open your eyes so you can see..
Let our hearts feel how it used to be..
I’ll always need you as the moon says hello
to the sun as it eclipses its’ glow..
I’ll follow you anywhere as long as it’s everywhere in this life of the great unknown..
The silence around you is louder than usual
Crazy as it seems
Crazy as it is
the radio silence drives me..
mutations of your heart..
The more extreme
the closer I feel I know your being..
Am I hallucinating
Or is this real
Because it’s you I no longer feel..
I’m grieving more than just you
For you see
I’ve lost me
we are one person
We are two alone
Always multiplying into the unknown
Now I’m not so sure
was i you
Am I me..
I see empty space through your face as time stands still..
Those child eyes alive with fear that always see more than there is
I see it too
I travel through you
Sitting beautifully still and feeling everything you do
Miles away – you still shine through
completing everything I thought I knew
Come what may I won’t fade away, though it’s hazy and turning gray..
memories will hold me
And carry us through
There’s no escaping the fate of you..
I’ll keep you safe as I tuck us in and brace for the phase about to begin..
What’s etched on the heart is here to stay though the words keep changing day by day..
we may put to rest the story we knew
But the pages keep turning for me & you..
I loved you before I knew what it was
My heart calling out before I could verbalize your name..
Walking toward you before I understood you existed
A longing – I felt
a yearning – I taste
a reckoning of the soul to be made whole..
It beckons me..
I envy the peace of the dead
The quiet in the head-
one I’ve never known..
They want me to hold on
Feel the heartbeat – don’t give in to defeat..
My beginning never got to start
Now I ask you – put me in the ground
Let me end where I began
I can’t exist in this magical land
Let me be the fairy dust in your hand.