the more i know
the further i go
sinking into that rabbit hole…
It owns me
setting apart my heart
Bleeding me through depleting what i knew..
Part of me dies as i come alive..
do what you please
cure me from the rot that eats my heart..
messy, chaotic, tangled and swept
adversely affected is all that I’ve kept..
Strange steps take us back
The cinder beneath guiding our feet
our minds go quiet
While our hearts riot..
of all that our mind had never heard..
i hope this illness
can heal us
from all we’ve come to be
You’ve chiseled me down
I’ll wear this madness of you
like a crown..
painful and pleasant regretful delight..
your aroma soothes my soul
such a pitiful sight..
my heart skips a beat with the aftertaste sweet..
in my haste
I failed to see
and the pretense of your need..
I bow out with grace
no hate on my face
leave me be I plead
to wallow in disgrace..
I harbor no ill will..
for still – be as it may
I will display
Only the good..
my home full of memories
a mixture of sad with a heart full of glad..
an ending that must come – though it leaves me undone..
I will never forget what it is like to be lost and free..
I will always know what it is like to be found and bound..
we went round & round
until my sounds were silenced
You never understood
My heart was your design
the markings of you permanent..
The ink has dried
yet on & on we go..
even though our song is no longer sung
you are all I know..
Who could blame me
I didn’t want just the flame
I wanted my turn to feel the burn and to
You collect the debts of my soul
You paint the pictures in my mind
You paint the pictures in my heart
You will follow me in my new start
Blood stained by the likes of you..
Blessed it be the mystery of love..
not to be solved -broken down or tamed..
Love has no name – it beats to its’ own game..
I lived for this endless wonder
Thrived in its’ unspeakable beauty
grew by the sounds of love
until I never knew this kind of blue that it possessed..
my world went silent
sharpest quiet cut me down until
my ears could no longer hear
My heart could no longer bear..
Yet I’ll always care for this lovely game of love that causes such despair..
Cursed it be the mystery of love..
Jealous of the night that wraps you in its’ intoxicating moments..
The moon that rocks you tender as you slumber..
envious of the sun that shakes you gently with its’ morning hello..
Oh that you could see my light and how it revolves around you
That my heart was still the beacon that lit you up..
You closed your eyes and it went black..
So I’ll grieve and
My heart will bleed
Yet I’m removing the shackles that bind me
I’ve done my time..
I won’t sulk anymore
Nor dwell on the memories
I’ve kissed them goodbye
No – I will not steep in sadness or misery like a bitter tea..
I choose to keep moving and let my heart be as free as the sea..
a part of your soul will always keep me whole..
a collection of choices..
Do they make you
masquerade slipping away
The loose ends fall nicely at my feet
You believe I can wrap it up nice and neat..
I’m magical, incredible such a treat..
You’re aren’t in love with me you see..
You’re in love with you and
How you feel when I make you real..
Your hurts have been harsh
They hit you like steel
I’m a source of energy
bringing you back to life
helping you let go of strife..
Let me pull back the shades
revealing all the charades..
I know you’re weakness
It’s freedom in the madness
The more mad, the more free.. revel in who you choose to be..
it’s a new dawn
A new day
A new you..
those ears.. eager to hear what they wish to believe
They listen with hunger and zest
wishing to settle all this unrest
Pour it all out – little by little
gleaning it up until You get your fill
and it becomes the absolute real even as it sits you still..
One lie turns into many and the truth gets lost until a lie is all that’s left
at such a cost – it’s crushing heavy in your chest..
It will leave you walking on your knees as you grieve what you can’t perceive..
Stand strong – don’t give in to fit where you don’t belong..
Comfort is a tough thing to give away
Don’t fear what you don’t know
Allow yourself to grow
The end game is worth the fall..