truth

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diseased by love

Published April 13, 2019 by lamarrwenrich

the more i know

the further i go

sinking into that rabbit hole…

It owns me

dethrones me

setting apart my heart

Bleeding me through depleting what i knew..

Part of me dies as i come alive..

beautiful disease

do what you please

cure me from the rot that eats my heart..

messy, chaotic, tangled and swept

adversely affected is all that I’ve kept..

Strange steps take us back

The cinder beneath guiding our feet

our minds go quiet

While our hearts riot..

in awe

amazed, uncertain

unsure

of all that our mind had never heard..

i hope this illness

can heal us

from all we’ve come to be

You’ve chiseled me down

I’ll wear this madness of you

like a crown..

Regretful delight..

Published February 17, 2019 by lamarrwenrich

Bittersweet you..

painful and pleasant regretful delight..

your aroma soothes my soul

such a pitiful sight..

my heart skips a beat with the aftertaste sweet..

in my haste

I failed to see

the deceit,

the greed,

and the pretense of your need..

I bow out with grace

no hate on my face

leave me be I plead

left alone

to wallow in disgrace..

I harbor no ill will..

for still – be as it may

I will display

Only the good..

my home full of memories

a mixture of sad with a heart full of glad..

an ending that must come – though it leaves me undone..

Bloodstained..

Published April 4, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

 

I will never forget what it is like to be lost and free..
I will always know what it is like to be found and bound..
we went round & round
until my sounds were silenced
You never understood
My heart was your design
the markings of you permanent..
The ink has dried
yet on & on we go..
even though our song is no longer sung
you are all I know..
Who could blame me
I didn’t want just the flame
I wanted my turn to feel the burn and to
consume me..
You collect the debts of my soul
You paint the pictures in my mind
You paint the pictures in my heart
You will follow me in my new start
As I’m
Blood stained by the likes of you..

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a Blessing and a Curse..

Published March 6, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

Blessed it be the mystery of love..

not to be solved -broken down or tamed..

Love has no name – it beats to its’ own game..

I lived for this endless wonder

Thrived in its’ unspeakable beauty

grew by the sounds of love

until I never knew this kind of blue that it possessed..

my world went silent

sharpest quiet cut me down until

my ears could no longer hear

My heart could no longer bear..

Yet I’ll always care for this lovely game of love that causes such despair..

Cursed it be the mystery of love..

Free as the sea..

Published March 4, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

Jealous of the night that wraps you in its’ intoxicating moments..

The moon that rocks you tender as you slumber..

envious of the sun that shakes you gently with its’ morning hello..

Oh that you could see my light and how it revolves around you

That my heart was still the beacon that lit you up..

You closed your eyes and it went black..

So I’ll grieve and

My heart will bleed

Yet I’m removing the shackles that bind me

I’ve done my time..

I won’t sulk anymore

Nor dwell on the memories

I’ve kissed them goodbye

No – I will not steep in sadness or misery like a bitter tea..

I choose to keep moving and let my heart be as free as the sea..

a part of your soul will always keep me whole..

Mind Games

Published February 23, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

a collection of choices..

Do they make you

Break you

forsake you..

Pretenses..

masquerade slipping away

The loose ends fall nicely at my feet

You believe I can wrap it up nice and neat..

I’m magical, incredible such a treat..

You’re aren’t in love with me you see..

You’re in love with you and

How you feel when I make you real..

Your hurts have been harsh

They hit you like steel

I’m a source of energy

bringing you back to life

helping you let go of strife..

Let me pull back the shades

revealing all the charades..

I know you’re weakness

It’s freedom in the madness

The more mad, the more free.. revel in who you choose to be..

it’s a new dawn

A new day

A new you..

Worth the fall..

Published February 18, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

those ears.. eager to hear what they wish to believe

They listen with hunger and zest

wishing to settle all this unrest

Pour it all out – little by little

gleaning it up until You get your fill

and it becomes the absolute real even as it sits you still..

One lie turns into many and the truth gets lost until a lie is all that’s left

at such a cost – it’s crushing heavy in your chest..

It will leave you walking on your knees as you grieve what you can’t perceive..

Stand strong – don’t give in to fit where you don’t belong..

Comfort is a tough thing to give away

Don’t fear what you don’t know

Allow yourself to grow

Stand tall

The end game is worth the fall..