as I roam..

Published April 18, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

Homesick for a home that doesn’t exist anymore..

I wonder as I wander

what I’m looking for..

putting my hands in

I dig deep

As I seek the mystery from the other side..

my wounds

bare my soul,

dim my light,

expose my darkness,

unravel my madness

and restore my hopes..

I live in there

They make me

they break me

It also sets me free..

no crying over things that aren’t or weren’t

Live life to its’ fullest..

There will always be X

The great unknown

and it may always keep me seeking for my home

but I will thrive as i roam..

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Handful of love..

Published April 10, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

oh the life they’ve lived..

as I hold them tight

eyes closed

my imagination goes for a ride

as I try to relive what is inside..

I want to give back what you gave with such grace..

so many stories waiting to be told – wrapped up tenderly in their fold..

Tracing the lines

my hand upon yours

I feel it

I live it..

the moments they’ve seen

the joys, the heartaches and the in-betweens..

through the touch of your fingertips straight to my heart – you’ve been there carrying us right from the start..

those strong, loving hands binding us tight knowing that it took all of your might..

guiding us through each of the plights..

Cheering us on through the good and the bad..

comforting, caressing with all that you had..

encouraging protector -beacon of light

You are what pushed us on through the dark nights..

your hands have loved us, snuggled us and raised us on up..

woven throughout my heart and filled up my cup..

As I hold your hand now

I fully understand

exactly what it meant to be in command..

you’ve given your all

my heart overflows

as imagination and reality finally take hold..

I can stand strong and see old things new

Living this blessing because of you..

Walk with me..

Published April 7, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

Words may escape us

certainty may evade us..

how did I miss it..

The empty smile

Total denial

slipping – we lost our footing

the ground shook beneath us

the world caved in

eclipsing our sun..

tears may fall with the slipping

Bones may be weary

but my heart remains full..

it trembles with the unsteadiness

as it roars with the love of you

all we need is the beating of our hearts to restart..

no more tears, no more fears..

I’ll fall

I’ll stand

I’ll walk

I’ll crawl

As long I’m silently doing it all beside you..

walk with me

My Toxin..

Published April 5, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

strychnine

inhaling, swallowing , absorbing you

your taste ever so lethal..

I slip away

I fly high

I fall apart

The pain I hide in dissipates..

Do you know I’m gone

Do you feel it in your bones..

I’m free

As they bury me eight feet deep..

with me goes the hurt &

the lies as i mix in with the dirt..

leaving me be

all my secrets

all my fears

have been set free..

Walk away and know –

I’m as happy as I’ll ever be as i go..

You are the only one don’t you know..

Bloodstained..

Published April 4, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

 

I will never forget what it is like to be lost and free..
I will always know what it is like to be found and bound..
we went round & round
until my sounds were silenced
You never understood
My heart was your design
the markings of you permanent..
The ink has dried
yet on & on we go..
even though our song is no longer sung
you are all I know..
Who could blame me
I didn’t want just the flame
I wanted my turn to feel the burn and to
consume me..
You collect the debts of my soul
You paint the pictures in my mind
You paint the pictures in my heart
You will follow me in my new start
As I’m
Blood stained by the likes of you..

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Orphaned Heart..

Published March 26, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

Beautiful trauma

what have we done..

How do we stop what has begun..

So bright on fire is our love..

So high on life we live above..

The highest highs lifting us up

Until our cup overflows with the sweetest of love..

something dark has taken control

sorrow has invaded into our soul

overshadowing the light we know..

I’m lost and rambling as I roam-

crying out is my love, as it desperately seeks to bring you home..

Desolate and all alone..

My heart soars and shatters simultaneously

certain I’ll find you –

yet, sure I’m on my own

With no place to call home..

deprived – abandoned

we are now dead..

I hope to survive with you in my head..

Immortal Us

Published March 19, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

Selective thoughts

forget me not..

memory loss – if it isn’t you and I carrying the cross

the gap too wide to fill – my life silently still..

We sit between chaos and peace

a rare gift are the

moments we share to keep

the chaos spreading us here & there

Splitting us into pieces we can’t bear..

Yet the peace we share is beyond compare..

There is a deficit in my heart – one that shortchanges me if we are too far apart

you alone are my home..

Some share love that reads like a poem-

then there are those that play out like an episode

while others could fill a chapter..

Ours would be a book that continues through the ages

criss crossing all the stages as it gauges the wonder of us..

maybe I’m biased -maybe I’m skewed

But the chant of my heart determines the slant

There’s good, there’s bad and much to be had

But only the good remains..