I won't cry for yesterday
what's buried
let it lie
tears have left me high and dry..
exhaustion filling my insides
only I can turn the tide..
will I succumb to the dark
and be buried alive..
or do I fight with all I have
to see another summer sky..
it's a jungle
all tangled up inside
yet a bright light illuminates through the gloom
clearing the way for a new day..
meet me back at the beginning
let's change this beautiful lie..
smallest of change
so small it's unseen
yet it's perfection...
you are in the whisper of my heart
chasing order in the midst of chaos
becoming a nothing to be everything..
house on fire
doesn't have to burn to the ground
don't be afraid to turn around..
sometimes love is living the absence of what you wish for..
this is my perfect right now..
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slips through the fingers
catching us off guard
till we are lamenting
grasping at straws..
the moments evaporating
as it slaps us in the face..
slow down time
pull me out of this race..
would it matter
make a difference in my actions
would I notice while
walking through it..
or is it only obvious when we are on the other side of time
living moments like they aren't mine..
rushing through them so quickly
losing sight of all that's real
instead of soaking up the all feels
until we realize trickery just steals..
left to face what we lost in space
wishing
hoping
this existence
shows us a little grace..
where do I turn
where do I run
you were the one..
the sun that lit me up
the fun that kept me high
all in one..
no cure for this malady
no antidote
you're buried deep within
as pure a love I've ever known..
twisting and turning
you own this heart
in the big unknown..
to know it in my bones
the unseen
this kind of love
is to be set free
in a time that was made
for you and me..
wrapping me
round and round
matters not
which way is up or down
lost my bearings
as I slowly hit the ground ..
the depth of you has no ending
giving new meaning to a beginning..
in the silence I've found a beautiful sound
wounds no longer hardening my soul..
each moment fulfilling a purpose
absorbing it
learning from it
shaping me whole..
this calcified heart beating a new rhythm with the touch of yours
tethered forever
connecting us deep..
weaved through and through
the depth of you residing within
making me new..
it’s anything I want it to be
a sweet perfect messy..
moments starting and ending to the different ways my mind is bending..
ink spilling freely
words filled with intense meaning
no one questioning or demeaning..
The wonder lies in the path of my journey
not the end itself..
home again..
where is it
when everything changes..
moments evaporate
loved ones following
dissipating into thin air
undoing my sure footing ..
can I take it back
rewind time
set my foot back behind..
is it real
can time stand still..
Or wishful dreaming
holding so tight to the seams
as it all seeps through the tears
of life as it wears on you..
let the wheels keep turning
while all i know is burning
setting new ground
where my heart can take root
and there I'll be found..
pure unfiltered emotions
ever so rare
once upon a time all mine to lay bare..
free to be me
lost in that space
one could say it's my favorite place..
just one day
what I would give
leave me to wonder around in it
and live..
the messes
the joy
the chaos so real
I'd run through each moment with unabandoned zeal..
walk away they say
couldn't leave with grace..
carved into my memory
moments ever so sacred
our special place ..
nothingness..
refuge from it all
the first sound of silence I've heard all day..
loud raging invisible sounds
banging round my heart to
my mind..
looking for ways to escape and unwind..
never certain what's real or a dream..
chaos - a life of its' own- is never quite what it seems..
what I seek can't be touched
won't be found going round and round..
it comes in whispers
when my heart settles down..
What I hear in the quiet calms down the riot..
grateful to walk through these moments
they're mine
time will do what time does as
i unwind...
eerily quiet
wasn't prepared for the sounds that dissipated
searching high and wide
for any familiarity
to keep me grounded
trying to remain true to myself..
what is truth ?
can it be found
when all that fills me are covered in lies ..
I will rise
not to be held down..
in this empty space I find myself
I hear my thoughts
I feel my emotions
the present moment never more clear
as I draw near to the silence I feared..
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