The silence around you is louder than usual
Crazy as it seems
Crazy as it is
the radio silence drives me..
mutations of your heart..
The more extreme
the closer I feel I know your being..
Am I hallucinating
Or is this real
Because it’s you I no longer feel..
I’m grieving more than just you
For you see
I’ve lost me
we are one person
We are two alone
Always multiplying into the unknown
Now I’m not so sure
was i you
Am I me..
a collection of choices..
Do they make you
masquerade slipping away
The loose ends fall nicely at my feet
You believe I can wrap it up nice and neat..
I’m magical, incredible such a treat..
You’re aren’t in love with me you see..
You’re in love with you and
How you feel when I make you real..
Your hurts have been harsh
They hit you like steel
I’m a source of energy
bringing you back to life
helping you let go of strife..
Let me pull back the shades
revealing all the charades..
I know you’re weakness
It’s freedom in the madness
The more mad, the more free.. revel in who you choose to be..
it’s a new dawn
A new day
A new you..
those ears.. eager to hear what they wish to believe
They listen with hunger and zest
wishing to settle all this unrest
Pour it all out – little by little
gleaning it up until You get your fill
and it becomes the absolute real even as it sits you still..
One lie turns into many and the truth gets lost until a lie is all that’s left
at such a cost – it’s crushing heavy in your chest..
It will leave you walking on your knees as you grieve what you can’t perceive..
Stand strong – don’t give in to fit where you don’t belong..
Comfort is a tough thing to give away
Don’t fear what you don’t know
Allow yourself to grow
The end game is worth the fall..
I see empty space through your face as time stands still..
Those child eyes alive with fear that always see more than there is
I see it too
I travel through you
Sitting beautifully still and feeling everything you do
Miles away – you still shine through
completing everything I thought I knew
Come what may I won’t fade away, though it’s hazy and turning gray..
memories will hold me
And carry us through
There’s no escaping the fate of you..
I’ll keep you safe as I tuck us in and brace for the phase about to begin..
What’s etched on the heart is here to stay though the words keep changing day by day..
we may put to rest the story we knew
But the pages keep turning for me & you..
aging and sagging in place of the smiles
Exhaustion and tiredness instead of sweet miles
Our eyes becomes shaded and jaded with time
And genuine hopefulness turns on a dime
But stand where He is and hold out your hand
He sees beauty and grace across my face
Restoring and loving me despite my haste
Because of His wonderfulness I can finish this race..
I love the nothing that makes me long to be that something of us..
Pull your string
Watch you beam
and act like it is all as it seems..
your house looks like it’s made of stone – strong and solid to the bone..
Opened you wide
is an inner layer filled with hate – no one able to knock down that gate..
Moments that words can no longer reach –
someone like you they cannot teach
though You’re gone – i see your face
I always say you only need space
Give me the time – give me your mind
I’ll grind out your insides as you unwind..
set up new wiring and restring you throughout-
pulling them tight until they’re just right..
as you move about with sheer delight,
your light will once again learn to shine bright..
I loved you before I knew what it was
My heart calling out before I could verbalize your name..
Walking toward you before I understood you existed
A longing – I felt
a yearning – I taste
a reckoning of the soul to be made whole..
It beckons me..
I envy the peace of the dead
The quiet in the head-
one I’ve never known..
They want me to hold on
Feel the heartbeat – don’t give in to defeat..
My beginning never got to start
Now I ask you – put me in the ground
Let me end where I began
I can’t exist in this magical land
Let me be the fairy dust in your hand.