Hazy smoke danced around her
as if to grab her attention..
as it slowly faded into the air
She looked around wishing to care..
The sun-kissed faces
laughing and sharing of the different places..
she hid within the walls of her confined spaces..
voices asking who she was, why she was
until she could no longer take it..
shielding her eyes
Holding her breath, begging for rest
from the demons she felt within her chest..
A light mist surrounded her
And in her mental confusion
she welcomed the haze as her safe place
evaporating there for the rest of her days..
the sad is shifting
the good is lifting
I see with the heart of my eyes
It’s no mystery you somehow missed me..
on an unmarked day
At an unknown hour
my heart came alive..
with all the commotion going on inside..
Time has put space between the sad and the good – as it should..
I miss you once upon another time..
you danced my heart full of sunshine and kisses sweet
I’m moving beyond the sad
glad I lived it well
my heart is where it was to be
It is beautiful and free..
Jealous of the night that wraps you in its’ intoxicating moments..
The moon that rocks you tender as you slumber..
envious of the sun that shakes you gently with its’ morning hello..
Oh that you could see my light and how it revolves around you
That my heart was still the beacon that lit you up..
You closed your eyes and it went black..
So I’ll grieve and
My heart will bleed
Yet I’m removing the shackles that bind me
I’ve done my time..
I won’t sulk anymore
Nor dwell on the memories
I’ve kissed them goodbye
No – I will not steep in sadness or misery like a bitter tea..
I choose to keep moving and let my heart be as free as the sea..
a part of your soul will always keep me whole..
a tiny sprout
That’s all it took
to rejuvenate her beauty and make her whole
springing her back to things untold..
a seed planted
Growing like a weed
that changed something frightful into something beautiful..
You moved about her heart without getting trampled or torn apart..
changing the backdrop of her ugly
you set her free from the limits of her life..
The iron bars melted from her soul
She sees beauty everywhere she goes
The glimmer on the trees
Dew on the grass
Sun kissed morning skies that disappear so fast
And the hope that has closed the door to her ill-fated past..
There’s not a word for everything you’ve done but she needs you
like the flowers will always need the sun..
life is full of mystique
the unexpected causing us to always seek..
some uncertainties shrouded in mysteries to great to grasp
leaving it’s unforeseen moments creating our past..
I may look the same
sound the same
Feel the same
But I have no name
My insides screaming for all we can’t see..
my heartbeat – once your haven –
come to me
lay your head to rest where it longs to be
as the sounds of the beat bring you home to the retreat of Me..
We are circling the sun
open your eyes so you can see..
Let our hearts feel how it used to be..
I’ll always need you as the moon says hello
to the sun as it eclipses its’ glow..
I’ll follow you anywhere as long as it’s everywhere in this life of the great unknown..
The silence around you is louder than usual
Crazy as it seems
Crazy as it is
the radio silence drives me..
mutations of your heart..
The more extreme
the closer I feel I know your being..
Am I hallucinating
Or is this real
Because it’s you I no longer feel..
I’m grieving more than just you
For you see
I’ve lost me
we are one person
We are two alone
Always multiplying into the unknown
Now I’m not so sure
was i you
Am I me..
those ears.. eager to hear what they wish to believe
They listen with hunger and zest
wishing to settle all this unrest
Pour it all out – little by little
gleaning it up until You get your fill
and it becomes the absolute real even as it sits you still..
One lie turns into many and the truth gets lost until a lie is all that’s left
at such a cost – it’s crushing heavy in your chest..
It will leave you walking on your knees as you grieve what you can’t perceive..
Stand strong – don’t give in to fit where you don’t belong..
Comfort is a tough thing to give away
Don’t fear what you don’t know
Allow yourself to grow
The end game is worth the fall..