Raining in my heart
A cleansing of the old..
Renewing of a start
A beacon of hope has begun exactly where I stand..
it’s not in the big things
Nor the mountain tops high..
It’s the steady and
The slow in the things we don’t know..
the moments in between
The quiet unseen..
where the bones are scattered
The feet are crushed
And all the craziness is silenced and hushed..
The bones come together as the rain gently flows..
reshaping and transforming hope as it grows
I welcome the broken,
the scars and the pain-
my heart keeps growing
it’s never in vain..
Grind me up
there we are
the aroma of love permeating the air..
my soul is bare..
mixed in till there is not one degree of separation between you & me..
no escaping the fate of us
we are one..
Will it become our undoing
Or are we already undone..
a love that makes many want to run
settles me still..
Sabotaged my heart to the point of no return..
tecum usque ad mortem..
I will not set you free
I savor the flavor of we..
I inherited your shadow..
The over lay
Of you was all I knew..
A reflected image of your love shone through
guiding the way..
each footstep pushing me on
making me strong
The hurried ones, the slow ones, the skipping ones, the stalled ones..
a shadow of love that covered me well..
I was brave enough to follow along
l will shadow dance with you into obscurity..
You are the hand that holds the pen to that far away land
our hearts dictating the plans..
The darkness returns
cocooning me in its’ web of warmth and loneliness..
bringing you back
and all we knew
All we know of our highs and lows..
we’ve been kissed by the rain as it washed away our pain
We endured the fire as it branded our hearts..
our love would have never been erased..
my arms hold on to the empty space
so hard to hold on to what’s gone
Harder to let it go..
I am yesterday
It is tomorrow..
Closing my eyes
I’ll feel it one more time
as I welcome in the dawn..
I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I welcome it in
desperate for rest
I run till i fall in search of it all..
The charm of the quiet
I’m under its’ spell
I scream till I yell
hungry for anyone to look at me and tell..
I may be alone
as my grasp gives way to the icy fingers on their own
no one there to warm my hand..
It’s ok – I understand..
The only way outward is inward
Don’t think me coward
for there isn’t a lie I’d rather know than the truth..
stretched so tight I no longer feel..
the impenetrable wall
The divide growing
as our hearts are sowing new paths..
Opposition to one another
Fighting for space in the canvas of your heart..
Until I say no more
no more to saying yes
Freeing myself to choose..
Only when I’m free
Can i keep the monsters at bay
The ones I can’t see that choke the air out of me..
I knew this day might come
though I knew you were my truth..
there’s no comfort in waiting for the last beat of our hearts
Let it die before that starts..
I need you to look out and see
you will always be a part of me..
I want to drink the air
Live in the sunset
taste the water
emerge from it new
washed clean from all I’ve seen..
layer after layer I shed my skin
Looking for the freedom of where to begin
Only to find the same eyes pulling me back again..
What does it matter that I shed the outside gone-
my insides whirl round and round owning me strong..
I could choose to give in to all of my sins
Or reach out my hand to the one I know so well –
The best of me..
There you are standing tall
I exist because you chose to fall
Thank you for loving me through it all