My Toxin..

Published April 5, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

strychnine

inhaling, swallowing , absorbing you

your taste ever so lethal..

I slip away

I fly high

I fall apart

The pain I hide in dissipates..

Do you know I’m gone

Do you feel it in your bones..

I’m free

As they bury me eight feet deep..

with me goes the hurt &

the lies as i mix in with the dirt..

leaving me be

all my secrets

all my fears

have been set free..

Walk away and know –

I’m as happy as I’ll ever be as i go..

You are the only one don’t you know..

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Bloodstained..

Published April 4, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

 

I will never forget what it is like to be lost and free..
I will always know what it is like to be found and bound..
we went round & round
until my sounds were silenced
You never understood
My heart was your design
the markings of you permanent..
The ink has dried
yet on & on we go..
even though our song is no longer sung
you are all I know..
Who could blame me
I didn’t want just the flame
I wanted my turn to feel the burn and to
consume me..
You collect the debts of my soul
You paint the pictures in my mind
You paint the pictures in my heart
You will follow me in my new start
As I’m
Blood stained by the likes of you..

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Orphaned Heart..

Published March 26, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

Beautiful trauma

what have we done..

How do we stop what has begun..

So bright on fire is our love..

So high on life we live above..

The highest highs lifting us up

Until our cup overflows with the sweetest of love..

something dark has taken control

sorrow has invaded into our soul

overshadowing the light we know..

I’m lost and rambling as I roam-

crying out is my love, as it desperately seeks to bring you home..

Desolate and all alone..

My heart soars and shatters simultaneously

certain I’ll find you –

yet, sure I’m on my own

With no place to call home..

deprived – abandoned

we are now dead..

I hope to survive with you in my head..

Immortal Us

Published March 19, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

Selective thoughts

forget me not..

memory loss – if it isn’t you and I carrying the cross

the gap too wide to fill – my life silently still..

We sit between chaos and peace

a rare gift are the

moments we share to keep

the chaos spreading us here & there

Splitting us into pieces we can’t bear..

Yet the peace we share is beyond compare..

There is a deficit in my heart – one that shortchanges me if we are too far apart

you alone are my home..

Some share love that reads like a poem-

then there are those that play out like an episode

while others could fill a chapter..

Ours would be a book that continues through the ages

criss crossing all the stages as it gauges the wonder of us..

maybe I’m biased -maybe I’m skewed

But the chant of my heart determines the slant

There’s good, there’s bad and much to be had

But only the good remains..

Fading…

Published March 12, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

Hazy smoke danced around her

as if to grab her attention..

as it slowly faded into the air

She looked around wishing to care..

The sun-kissed faces

laughing and sharing of the different places..

she hid within the walls of her confined spaces..

voices asking who she was, why she was

until she could no longer take it..

shielding her eyes

Holding her breath, begging for rest

from the demons she felt within her chest..

A light mist surrounded her

And in her mental confusion

she welcomed the haze as her safe place

evaporating there for the rest of her days..

Beyond the sad…

Published March 11, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

the sad is shifting

the good is lifting

I see with the heart of my eyes

It’s no mystery you somehow missed me..

on an unmarked day

At an unknown hour

my heart came alive..

full, wild

and thriving

with all the commotion going on inside..

Time has put space between the sad and the good – as it should..

I miss you once upon another time..

you danced my heart full of sunshine and kisses sweet

I’m moving beyond the sad

glad I lived it well

my heart is where it was to be

It is beautiful and free..

a Blessing and a Curse..

Published March 6, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

Blessed it be the mystery of love..

not to be solved -broken down or tamed..

Love has no name – it beats to its’ own game..

I lived for this endless wonder

Thrived in its’ unspeakable beauty

grew by the sounds of love

until I never knew this kind of blue that it possessed..

my world went silent

sharpest quiet cut me down until

my ears could no longer hear

My heart could no longer bear..

Yet I’ll always care for this lovely game of love that causes such despair..

Cursed it be the mystery of love..