I loved you before I knew what it was

My heart calling out before I could verbalize your name..

Walking toward you before I understood you existed

A longing – I felt

a yearning – I taste

a reckoning of the soul to be made whole..

It beckons me..

I envy the peace of the dead

The quiet in the head-

one I’ve never known..

They want me to hold on

Feel the heartbeat – don’t give in to defeat..

My beginning never got to start

Now I ask you – put me in the ground

Let me end where I began

I can’t exist in this magical land

Let me be the fairy dust in your hand.