I loved you before I knew what it was
My heart calling out before I could verbalize your name..
Walking toward you before I understood you existed
A longing – I felt
a yearning – I taste
a reckoning of the soul to be made whole..
It beckons me..
I envy the peace of the dead
The quiet in the head-
one I’ve never known..
They want me to hold on
Feel the heartbeat – don’t give in to defeat..
My beginning never got to start
Now I ask you – put me in the ground
Let me end where I began
I can’t exist in this magical land
Let me be the fairy dust in your hand.