Bend with Me

Published July 13, 2015 by lamarrwenrich

With you without you
Here yet gone
I get it
I see it
I feel it
I know it
Everything is nothing now
It’s empty lonely scary confusing
I’m lost
Feeling the chill through to my bones
Missing the smile
the laughs &
gentle touches
The peaceful silence
Sharing space
Sweetest times I’ve known
Small things that make it so special
Where did it all go..
Trying to explain it to myself
Make sense of it
But it is all in vain..
the perfect that was going to last a lifetime
gone in a moment..
Didn’t know I could be so broken
Funny how you still take my breath away..
Memories
So alive So real
I’ll stay
I’ll fight
I’ll push&pull
I’ll bend your way
Making new stories
Our stories
Make my heart soar ❤️

All Sparkly – Who Me?

Published July 11, 2015 by lamarrwenrich

Picture perfect life they say
So lucky so easy so carefree
How they wish to be her..
walk in her shoes and see
How it all just falls into place..
Gazing around She wonders who they speak of..
Eyes words attention all centered on her..
The kind naive words bring smiles to her face until it spills out into laughter as she shakes her head no fervently back and forth..
Wishing them to know truths
It’s absurd
Don’t they know nothing is easy
Nothing just happens
One must be brave
It is work
A lot of work
It is hard exhausting and wonderful work fighting for all she has..
Her actions make the choice
She chooses to live each moment
Though life is chaotic and a beautiful mess
And she teeters on the edge -often finding that balance overwhelming
she would never quit
Give up
Give in
Never gives that a thought..
Why she wonders?
she senses It is the struggle that gives her life meaning passion love happy sad worth-it-all moments..
As Her laughter subsides
she gets lost in these thoughts..
Grateful for all she’s lived
Her face lights up
Laughter spilling out again
knowing she is
Happy to walk in her shoes..

Choose You❤️

Published July 10, 2015 by lamarrwenrich

It is so wonderful
It has to be perfect
Sweetest thing she’s ever known
Wanting to know more
Curiosity growing
Needing to know more
Making her crazy
What is she looking for..
Bits&pieces of you
So alive
She remembers
That feeling of love – she can’t let go..
She can be all you want
All you need
Sweetest dream you’ll ever know
Stay long enough
You won’t let go..

In the Quiet

Published July 8, 2015 by lamarrwenrich

She wishes many things for you
Her love will always want to see all things good for him
She wants it all
Willing to take the chance
Sometimes it seems so impossible
Such a sweet beautiful dream they are
still can’t believe their worlds collided
can’t believe how fast
How hard and how completely deeply She has fallen for him..
In the quiet
The silence
Her thoughts can be loud at times and She can’t stop the tears
wondering and wondering
smiling & giggling too..
A vast mix of wonderful scary emotions –
She Doesn’t know why about anything but
She certainly is beyond words happy She ran into him in life again
All intertwined and meshed together
No longer sure where it starts or where it ends..

Irrational

Published July 8, 2015 by lamarrwenrich

Moments of pure happiness&joy
Found Living in the moment..
Like a switch
Moments of total fear&despair
As she slowly fades away..
All Gone in an instant
Heartbreaking to wake up..
Harder still
realizing it’s only the beginning of the end
Is she shutting down?
Is it real?
Not sure..
Is she all gone&forgotten
No memories?
As if it never was
No..
Sweet Glimpses remain..
Nothing is lost forever
Even as it decays
Falling apart
The fascination to keep her alive grows stronger
pushing her forward
Irrational Hope is awakened
living on in her
She fights fiercely
never to let the dark eclipse her light..

Eyes See Truth

Published June 30, 2015 by lamarrwenrich

The walls absorb her strength
energy is slowly drained
As the very breath becomes shallow
And she succumbs to the numbness surrounding her..
good is meant to happen here
Peaceful melodies wafting through the air
Beautiful decor
Cozy couches chairs and fancy water bottles await you
Thought time and care putting this room together to help one relax through the moments
Worried eyes see through it
Battle of the mind is raging Quieting her fears
Resting in the confidence her mind knows
Inner strength continuing to grow her..

Tell Me..

Published June 29, 2015 by lamarrwenrich

I wish many things
I wish to know what I don’t..
I dream many more..
What could be
What should be
What will be
Strangely sweet how you know what you know without really knowing..
Even stranger
How you invade my thoughts
Control my emotions
Live in my heart
Could I lose myself to just one kiss?..
Yet we don’t exist
What are we
Who are you
What am I
Vulnerable&lost is how I feel
I wish you would tell me..

Wears it Well..

Published June 28, 2015 by lamarrwenrich

Only what he lets them see
Is what they believe to be truth..
Or is it only that they choose to see what feels safe?..
Nothing is as it should be
How should it be exactly?..
He can’t let them down
Questions loom
Answers lost
Pressures build
His smile is tight
His eyes are dull
The shine lost in the turmoil of pretend
Yet He speaks the right words
His actions mirroring those of all things good
He can’t let truths be known he feels alone
He lets no one in as the day fades..
Charade continues
Yet Truth is blaring
No denying it..
It’s another day
Mask in place
His smile saying he’s fine
His eyes guarded
Much ground to cover
Many moments to live..
The sun is shining
As this hero steps into his shoes
And he wears them well..

Strange Feelings..

Published June 25, 2015 by lamarrwenrich

All is good
So it seems..
Laughter chats and peaceful moments turning
Changing
As we get closer to the place we dread
It’s a lonely path
Heart racing as we step through the doors
Fighting fears as they start to suffocate
Muscles tense
Breath
Nightmares buried roar to life..
Quiet tears slipping out
Looking for warmth in
Cold Sterile spaces
Plastic smiles
Drowning out the sad words floating through the room
Shutting out lost faces of the Strangers all looking for hope..
Seconds are an eternity
waiting for good news only please..
Always waiting..
Always hoping..

Forever love

Published June 17, 2015 by lamarrwenrich

From the very first glance
It was different
Eyes connected
jolted – as if hit by lightning
Felt by both through&through
something stirred deep within their soul
like they had known many moments together
Yet how could it be
These two strangers..
Desperate to connect but lost for words..
They kept walking
Further and further from one other’s lives..
Never to forget this moment
knowing something had changed within them..
Sweet moments lost
never to be..