such sadness has invaded my soul..
I cannot see through it
I’m no longer whole
I am numb
my mind has come undone..
I no longer feel
it’s all so unreal..
someone wake me
Shake me from this grief that has caused me to lose myself..
feet moving, arms hugging,
eyes wearily watching life that somehow keeps living..
sounds I don’t recognize escaping my mouth..
It is in the real – the now
So afraid of forgetting you
and somehow so afraid I’ll never be able to let you go..
Words we spoke
Plans we made..
a bonding of our hearts
words filling me with hope..
I’ll continue to dream
I’ll never let them die
I’ll release them to the sky..
I can love you and still say goodbye..
can you see
can you feel
Just how real..
You set off a dream…
was this a scheme gone awry..
a serious or fatal accident of the heart..
Bearing the casualty of the firestorm brewing within..
I don’t wish you to be an echo of a memory I can never forget
Don’t leave me to it alone
your intentions unknown
let’s share this mishap together –
Think on, consider, conceive the world of a you and a me
feel the flames of my hopes
And the heat of my dreams
Let me singe you with love that is bursting from my seams..
It’s okay, it’s alright – I’ve got you in my sights
dupe me, trick me, just don’t lose me
for I’m M.I.A. in the games you play…
The feel so real
The fine powder of you covering me
dust in the wind
nerve endings fire up with the scent..
familiar connective tissues back to life
the debri of we falling back into a stable arrangement of lifelong hopes & dreams..
Yet the dusting of you never settles
as the gust blows through me
A cold blast of wind rips through my heart
pulling you from me
as I clutch on to the remnants of what was..
Who made these sounds the ruler of her heart..
wondering where it began
what is the purpose of those words spoken..
Each syllable slamming into her like an explosion of shards..
Her emotions flying in every direction
the aftermath unthinkable
ripping her apart
The stain runs deep
Her hands tarnished picking up the pieces
cleaning up the hurts
The mess has beat her mind numb
Her heart bleeds
and the truth spills all over it..
It’s never enough for him
She never has been..
She sits in the darkness waiting for the light
hoping to understand the words that dictate her heart..
My love filled you
Soothed you held you
But so quickly you would forget
Kisses hugs gentle words sad words
begging pleading crying
Trying to love the violence out of you..
You said over and over
It is done – last time
Love is it
All we need
It was the master plan to healing all things..
all things but you
Oh how I wanted to believe
You’ve wrung me dry
Hung me out and watched me die
Each hurt hitting so hard
So forceful – I couldn’t get up..
This is the day
You’re on your own
What will you do without your punching bag
Icicles now fall from my eyes
My love turning cold turning to hate..
Take a look inside of me now
Where is she
That girl who gave you her heart
With a love so pure
It rocked your world
You won’t leave her be
Can’t set her free
You just didn’t see
The congealing of her heart
She knew how to fall in love without trying
Like breathing air..
It was all around her
Traipsing about as it
Drew her in
Filling her with new life
As she opened up to it..
One moment after another
She absorbed him a little more
Each moment sweeter than the one before..
No more walls between them
Heart completely opened Soul Bared
Vulnerable safe exhilarated frightened
She broke all her rules for him
Something about it all
Making her want to stay..
for him she risked it all
All worth it..
She feels the change
Knew it all along really
Said it could never be..
Storm is brewing
How Will she survive it?
Eyes wide open as they grew into a We..
Can she watch love die..
She’s not prepared to
He said he’d always catch her..
Haunted by Him
The sweetest love
The saddest goodbye..
It will always be You