inhaling, swallowing , absorbing you
your taste ever so lethal..
I slip away
I fly high
I fall apart
The pain I hide in dissipates..
Do you know I’m gone
Do you feel it in your bones..
As they bury me eight feet deep..
with me goes the hurt &
the lies as i mix in with the dirt..
leaving me be
all my secrets
all my fears
have been set free..
Walk away and know –
I’m as happy as I’ll ever be as i go..
You are the only one don’t you know..
wanting the old – facing the new
wishing you were anywhere but gone..
is there a difference when our beings are connected..
even after life dies
I keep learning about you..
like waking up to the smell of childhood
every sense touched
until I’m flooded with memories that make me whole..
What do I love about you..
To begin with –
you completed me – tying up my loose ends – filling me &
making me whole..
Though we tend to eat with our eyes
It is our soul that craves the nutrients
you taught me what really matters forever more..
With a concentrated effort
i’ll sync with you
finding your rhythm as life keeps changing –
I’ll hold tight
in a world that’s always moving and filled with hearts that grow cold from weariness..
Warm my bones
as i move into
fresh starts of old..
How do I stand at the abyss and not fall in..
the nightmare a reality
They need me to stay strong..
How do I keep my heart from giving in
It feels what my eyes see
It hears the violent truths my ears hear
It can’t escape what my mind can’t fathom..
This space can’t exist without you
my walls will come tumbling down
Who will save me if I can’t save you
my heart is so weary
How do I protect you
Keep the chains of pain away from you
my heart runs cold from fear..
My eyes will close with yours
So I can see your smile
Hear your giggles
Feel those little hands reaching out and touching me
my heart needs yours..
maybe one day I’ll breathe again
What I’d give to breath your air for a lifetime..
In the quietude, my words are loud clear crisp
they have taken flight through the eyes of which they live
speaking what they see
my true voice alive in you
My inner strength has come to be
I’m moving onward in the stillness
Knowing only I can help you
battle the pain within
You will see
you will understand
The space between us will be no more
I may exist in another time
We may never speak again
The absence of us may feel it’s swallowing you up
For I’ve disappeared..
but my heart will never change
No matter how kind or unkind life was to us
We will always be
you are in me and I am in you
A love absorbed into my Heart mind and soul
traipses through me and allows me to keep living in you in the most beautiful of ways..
I am right here, right there
I’ll always be in the air around you
An eternal part of you
I’ll always be your whisper
It is ok to let me go..
Yesterday no more..
Death has been my constant companion for many a days now
flirting with my mind
Trying to spin around me like a spider webbing his victim..
cloaking me with fear
I battle through
Death won’t take me
It shakes me
It wakes me
But will never break me..
Death can’t own me
I’ve been set free
I’ll face my trepidations with courage for I know I’ll grow..
understanding not all things are easy to accept
while some things are worth dying for..
I have no control so I’m letting go
I’m not behind me
nor in front
I’m right here right now – in the present – this is the moment that counts
I will live it like I mean it while I can
because life is more than me..