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Bloodstained..

Published April 4, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

 

I will never forget what it is like to be lost and free..
I will always know what it is like to be found and bound..
we went round & round
until my sounds were silenced
You never understood
My heart was your design
the markings of you permanent..
The ink has dried
yet on & on we go..
even though our song is no longer sung
you are all I know..
Who could blame me
I didn’t want just the flame
I wanted my turn to feel the burn and to
consume me..
You collect the debts of my soul
You paint the pictures in my mind
You paint the pictures in my heart
You will follow me in my new start
As I’m
Blood stained by the likes of you..

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Immortal Us

Published March 19, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

Selective thoughts

forget me not..

memory loss – if it isn’t you and I carrying the cross

the gap too wide to fill – my life silently still..

We sit between chaos and peace

a rare gift are the

moments we share to keep

the chaos spreading us here & there

Splitting us into pieces we can’t bear..

Yet the peace we share is beyond compare..

There is a deficit in my heart – one that shortchanges me if we are too far apart

you alone are my home..

Some share love that reads like a poem-

then there are those that play out like an episode

while others could fill a chapter..

Ours would be a book that continues through the ages

criss crossing all the stages as it gauges the wonder of us..

maybe I’m biased -maybe I’m skewed

But the chant of my heart determines the slant

There’s good, there’s bad and much to be had

But only the good remains..

Beyond the sad…

Published March 11, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

the sad is shifting

the good is lifting

I see with the heart of my eyes

It’s no mystery you somehow missed me..

on an unmarked day

At an unknown hour

my heart came alive..

full, wild

and thriving

with all the commotion going on inside..

Time has put space between the sad and the good – as it should..

I miss you once upon another time..

you danced my heart full of sunshine and kisses sweet

I’m moving beyond the sad

glad I lived it well

my heart is where it was to be

It is beautiful and free..

a Blessing and a Curse..

Published March 6, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

Blessed it be the mystery of love..

not to be solved -broken down or tamed..

Love has no name – it beats to its’ own game..

I lived for this endless wonder

Thrived in its’ unspeakable beauty

grew by the sounds of love

until I never knew this kind of blue that it possessed..

my world went silent

sharpest quiet cut me down until

my ears could no longer hear

My heart could no longer bear..

Yet I’ll always care for this lovely game of love that causes such despair..

Cursed it be the mystery of love..

Free as the sea..

Published March 4, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

Jealous of the night that wraps you in its’ intoxicating moments..

The moon that rocks you tender as you slumber..

envious of the sun that shakes you gently with its’ morning hello..

Oh that you could see my light and how it revolves around you

That my heart was still the beacon that lit you up..

You closed your eyes and it went black..

So I’ll grieve and

My heart will bleed

Yet I’m removing the shackles that bind me

I’ve done my time..

I won’t sulk anymore

Nor dwell on the memories

I’ve kissed them goodbye

No – I will not steep in sadness or misery like a bitter tea..

I choose to keep moving and let my heart be as free as the sea..

a part of your soul will always keep me whole..

Melancholy Heart..

Published February 26, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

life is full of mystique

the unexpected causing us to always seek..

some uncertainties shrouded in mysteries to great to grasp

leaving it’s unforeseen moments creating our past..

I may look the same

sound the same

Feel the same

But I have no name

My insides screaming for all we can’t see..

my heartbeat – once your haven –

come to me

lay your head to rest where it longs to be

as the sounds of the beat bring you home to the retreat of Me..

We are circling the sun

open your eyes so you can see..

Let our hearts feel how it used to be..

I’ll always need you as the moon says hello

to the sun as it eclipses its’ glow..

I’ll follow you anywhere as long as it’s everywhere in this life of the great unknown..

You &Me..

Published February 24, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

The silence around you is louder than usual

Crazy as it seems

Crazy as it is

the radio silence drives me..

mutations of your heart..

The more extreme

the closer I feel I know your being..

Am I hallucinating

Or is this real

Because it’s you I no longer feel..

I’m grieving more than just you

For you see

I’ve lost me

we are one person

We are two alone

Always multiplying into the unknown

Now I’m not so sure

was i you

Or

Am I me..

Turn the Page..

Published February 11, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

I see empty space through your face as time stands still..

Those child eyes alive with fear that always see more than there is

I see it too

I travel through you

Sitting beautifully still and feeling everything you do

Miles away – you still shine through

completing everything I thought I knew

Come what may I won’t fade away, though it’s hazy and turning gray..

memories will hold me

And carry us through

There’s no escaping the fate of you..

I’ll keep you safe as I tuck us in and brace for the phase about to begin..

What’s etched on the heart is here to stay though the words keep changing day by day..

we may put to rest the story we knew

But the pages keep turning for me & you..

Fairy Dust…

Published February 5, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

I loved you before I knew what it was

My heart calling out before I could verbalize your name..

Walking toward you before I understood you existed

A longing – I felt

a yearning – I taste

a reckoning of the soul to be made whole..

It beckons me..

I envy the peace of the dead

The quiet in the head-

one I’ve never known..

They want me to hold on

Feel the heartbeat – don’t give in to defeat..

My beginning never got to start

Now I ask you – put me in the ground

Let me end where I began

I can’t exist in this magical land

Let me be the fairy dust in your hand.

Dazed & Confused..

Published January 23, 2018 by lamarrwenrich

You’re strolling – you’re walking – controlling the madness

Chanting and whispering with passion unfolding..

You start with a purpose and end at a loss

As the weight of the cross grows heavier with the mass..

you disappear -bit by bit – as each new thought and each new view is pounded into you..

Who can speak louder – who can overpower

Who can do most evil yet smell like a flower…

let’s cover up the stench

And bury the lies – until each truth simply dies..

Confusion abounds – your mission unclear –

Why oh why is it no one can hear…

I’m speaking I’m certain till I’m blue in the face

But we’ve lost something special – this human race-

without love as the base, we have no case..