Animal cry…

Published August 6, 2017 by lamarrwenrich

a heart wrenching wail..
so visceral – I feel you cut to my core..
Just let go
What used to be doesn't count anymore..
I'll teach you how to do it new
I won't let you say goodbye
I won't watch you give up
You cry out silently –
eyes begging for help..
see what's before you..
I will be the she who holds out her hand
The anchor who won't let go..
Hear the scream of my heart
listen to the loudness of my animal cry for you..
I'm the beast who will fight your demons
until your mind is no longer weary,
Until your heart is beating on its' own
Until your legs find the strength & courage to carry you home
Because that is what love does..

Dance of Life

Published August 6, 2017 by lamarrwenrich

my imagination alive and well,
lingers on past the moments that fill my soul..
Tinkering about this quiet home and stepping around the sweet bodies sprawled about,
my thoughts race as I see the future before me and I hope, I wish, I pray for grace upon these innocents..
my humans..
such a gift; a purpose to love another soul in the most miraculous of ways
studying them in their slumber.. to watch the heart beat and know a beautiful life is within..
The dance of life can be loud, quiet, happy, sad, full and empty
But it's a beat worth moving to..
swaying to the rhythm
Keep shouting through life – your ears will love the sound of fighting for love
and your heart will live for it..
The curiosity of it all feeds my soul..

Dust in the wind..

Published August 4, 2017 by lamarrwenrich

The feel so real
The fine powder of you covering me
dust in the wind
nerve endings fire up with the scent..
familiar connective tissues back to life
the debri of we falling back into a stable arrangement of lifelong hopes & dreams..
Yet the dusting of you never settles
as the gust blows through me
A cold blast of wind rips through my heart
pulling you from me
as I clutch on to the remnants of what was..

Deadly Love

Published July 22, 2017 by lamarrwenrich

she hears sounds
Sees the lips moving..
meaningless words
The praises bestowed upon her full of empty air
Choking her silent until she couldn't care
muting her with expectations
silencing her with his cold indifference
He shut her down by dismissing her thoughts
Unaware that she was disappearing into the words..
she heard & felt all the judgement until she wore it like her skin
buried underneath
She became invisible..
No one saw the destruction she had become
All was not well within the walls of her home
Nothing would revive the corpse of her soul
he loved her cruelly until she was no more

Escape Artist..

Published July 17, 2017 by lamarrwenrich

The stillness surrounds her

It's all familiar as her eyes open 

bringing life to her mind

Her heart hearing the words before they escape his lips..

everything has changed everything remains the same..

all of life's moments filtering through her as she hungrily laps it up 

absorbing every drop 

Ravenous for change 

Clinging to hope 

Believing every moment has its' reason and each step a purpose.. 

the very precipice she teeters at determining whether she flees or stays.. 

Desperate to settle 

anxious for her heart to breathe 

She simply chooses to believe

As if it will all fall into place 

Knowing the highest cliff she could jump from

Is trust 

there's no reason to run anymore 

leaving behind the chains that strangled her heart 

and the handcuffs that bound her tight 

the ropes slip off her feet  

and the old becomes new 

She is confined no more…

Quiet Roar..

Published July 15, 2017 by lamarrwenrich

rumbling 

shaking 

jumbling me to my core 

not sure how it started 

when it began

or where it will end

was there a hello

Is there a goodbye  

is it from within 

Where does it go..

are you just a dream 

I have direction no more 

I’m laying flat out on the floor 

I’m going to love you a little bit more 

Until i hear that quiet roar 

Not Today..

Published July 2, 2017 by lamarrwenrich

Everything is spinning 

all meshed together 

Good slipping away,

 bad gaining power,

happy & sad 

all bleeding as one 

Threatening to bury us in its’ mess

we are fading in&out..

Who will break the fall

for we will not shatter..

Though like broken sticks and broken stones turn to dust, so will our bones 

we are still standing 

not blowing in the wind yet

Not today..

Hold me tight 

we will walk & fall united 

Together as one 

You’re my hero 

I’m your weakness 

We are the best of it all

Made from love 

Here’s to you & me

and our hearts’ content…

Deafening Sounds..

Published June 25, 2017 by lamarrwenrich

Who made these sounds the ruler of her heart..

wondering where it began

what is the purpose of those words spoken..

Each syllable slamming into her like an explosion of shards..

Her emotions flying in every direction 

the aftermath unthinkable 

ripping her apart 

The stain runs deep 

Her hands tarnished picking up the pieces 

cleaning up the hurts 

The mess has beat her mind numb

Her heart bleeds 

and the truth spills all over it..

It’s never enough for him 

She never has been..

She sits in the darkness waiting for the light 

hoping to understand the words that dictate her heart..

MainStay

Published June 18, 2017 by lamarrwenrich

Love 

My oldest friend 

Do not abandon me 

disintegrating wasn’t part of the plan..

We’ve journeyed the miles hand in hand 

there is no beginning 

surely there is no end

I won’t let go

My foundation, my anchor 

My cornerstone 

We can sail through it all

The sky won’t fall 

no overthinking 

No sinking 

Redemption is our friend 

It will pull us up and pull us out 

We extend from the tip top to the bottomless bottom 

Always were, always will..

You are the mainstay of my heart..